Let The Rain Come Down
And Wash Away My Tears.
Let It Fills My Soul
And Drown My Fears.
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Dunman Sec Sch
ITE College EAST
Birthday -> 25061989
Spiritual -> 17042004
Hope Church Singapore
Youth Deco Ministry
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CAMP is a TOTALLY SCREWED!! I'm damn straight about that man. *sir is a camp where most men *i supposed* being treated unreasonably. Do exactly what they say and still end up in the wrong. The camp is like a GIRL that is always undecisive and men are always wrong because certain commander need scapegoat and therefore men are there for them to push responsibilities to. Welfare is only given to men WHEN commanders need men to cover things up for them. People talks about welfare and yet it is actually like a trade for men. Whatever it is, camp in that place is always SCREWED. Thou there are actually FEW, only a few good commanders that actually can be trusted.
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12:43 AM
There are so many things that need to be said. So many stuffs that need to be heard. How many regrets are considered enough to make a person think a little more about how to cherish what they are doing now and then find out that it is useful in the future? I've things that i cant do now and i regret and because of all the time when im younger, i didnt take it as important as it is and therefore right now, i Regret! Should have put extra or even more effort on the learning and Not regret now. =( Though there is no point crying over spilled milk now. I thought maybe now is a better time to learn and see what i can do to cover the time i'd lost over the past years but it turns out otherwise. Everything has its own fullstop. And for that, i guess the fullstop is coming really soon and that's another regret that i cannot avoid. How?
maybe i should try.
- " Go home, sleep on it. We'll talk more tomorrow."
maybe this is better.
listening - Waterfall by Jon Schmidt
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1:52 AM
Today's evening for me started with a choir concert by DMN, SJI, CJC, RI held at SJI's chapel. Sheila, Gerald and me attended! Seriously, i haven't been to a chapel before and that makes it the first time for me. Concert was great. Those people can really project their VOICE man!! Nearing the end of the concert there's a Sing-along piece and i think it really brings the audience to somehow join in the fun of singing. =D After concert we went to tampines area to eat and headed down to TS. While waiting for sheila finish her class, daniel came down too. Sat at starbucks for quite awhile doing things and went back home.
listening - I Do by Jon Schmidt and Neal Middleton
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12:27 AM
Lately i've been clearing my off and leave. Long enough to called it as a holiday. I'd been to chalets and birthday party. You know, i've realise that a few things that i once prayed for is actually changing. There are times when i told myself what i am praying maybe will come or maybe not. But till few days back, i can say that the timing of things changing is not made known by God during the period after praying. You have to have a little faith. Prayer is to acknowledge that God is the creator is by praying to him means we know He is in charge and we bring the problem up to Him. He plans everything and He wants you to communicate by praying to Him. I didnt know what's praying actually is untill i realise praying is to acknowledge, claims the problems and etc... I had actually claim those stuffs in my life and yet i dont realise it till one by one come right in front of my face. God is Awesome. Seriously.
Few days back, i received a message from a friend that i didnt expect at all.I prayed and such for so long and now suddenly this friend message and im quite at a loss of words. I know what i can expect and what i can not expect. Simple enough, calls. For that i can expect but other than that, i dont. i'm still very happy that the message did came through to me. =)
There are things that you'd done and wish to undo it but knowing that you cant, the only thing to do is to pray. Pray that the positive side will come out instead of the bad and be better. That's what im hoping for now. oh dear........
listening - Our Last summer by Mamma Mia
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12:45 PM
Few days back when i was talking to a friend, he made in thinking till now even though he was the one that is troubled or rather frustrated. I wont say what happen exactly but what makes me thinking till now was about pleasing other, being acceptable by all, being imperfect. He had this ridiculous talk with a guy that he doesnt like and by means not to create an argument, he will keep quiet and listen.
The guy started to blame him continuously because of a small issue that is not his fault. After the talked, i walked pass my friend and end up talking to him. He told me he was avoiding argument and end up being so pissed about himself and shaken. He is a christian as well.
He said to love other is what we ought to do but why does it always end up being so bothered by everything that guy said? We are taught to love others, please others but we are not perfect therefore we cant always please others and do everything so smoothly. Does that make we vulnerable? And which of it make us vulnerable? Is that why people are so afraid of doing things or something else? People are all around and we know we care about what others think or say. How can we be better? After all, is that just moment of vulnerability or a moment of strength?
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1:49 AM
Thought i could blog about my life recently, my mind went blank and im staring at the screen dont know where to start and what to type. Okay, for the past weeks, i'd watched a few good movies with a group of awesome friends. Realized i missed service quite a number of times due to my duty in camp. Camp is seriously so screwed up!! I suppose when you work hard for something too much, you will end up losing the whole piece of it rather than owning some of it. There's a limit on everything. What should have been done, when to keep a distance or in fact, how to make it better? It is all about limit. "When everybody wants a piece of you, you run and you might get away and find a reason." "When there a problem or promises that we cant handle, we run like hell, hoping they'll be forgotten. But sooner or late, they always catch up. And maybe at the end of it, it isn't worth running away afterall.
listening - True by Ryan Cabrera
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7:33 PM
I am SO sO so TIRED!! Let's see how long can i actually last. Make it a challenge! =)
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2:41 AM
ARGHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh.... Hate this holiday. Is not suppose to be bored but somehow, i dont enjoy the holiday at all. Kind of feel screwed. No idea why. AND BLOGGER IS SO S SCREWED. GUI got problem for my laptop only i think. Cant change font colour, font type, etc......... SHIT!
My past few days had been so wasted! Seriously! Other than those days that are wasted, i went back to camp to do guard duty during my period of leave. Some people are just SO DAMN STUPID!!!!!! I went to funan to look for notebook, do some research. Hopefully to get one soon! Watched three movies during this period. Where got Ghost (BAD stuff), BandSlam (awesome plus we got the WHOLE theatre to OURSELVES.), The Proposal (NICE and Funny and Great!) Baybeat-ed yesterday after im done with my stuffs. Met jovin, and people for dinner first then headed to baybeat. Left at 11plus. Some bands were good.
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6:56 PM
Looking at my last entry, i believe time really flies. Important phrase for me in army is over and currently we're focusing on some shit work that we didnt complete as one last time and we are doing it soon. Though it is shit work, but when you actually count it, it gives you a PILE of shit work. Nonsense stuffs and everybody just hate it! Well, that's camp!
Saturday had combined service at suntec. Before going for service, i met some friends up in the morning at suntec as well. We ate our lunch at one duck restuarant at raffles city (i think). The meat of the duck was WOW!!!!!!!!! But kind of costly. Had 7 people at our table and we ordered one whole duck and 2 side dishes. One person $13+. After having duck as our lunch, we went to burger king for some fellowshipping. Talked, joked and mostly enjoyed ourselves. Some girls wanted to shop before heading back home so we accompanied them and after they left, i went to suntec to meet my group people. Service on the night was mainly on financial stuff. After service, th group went to have supper and i went over to tampines to meet bubu and jumat. Slept over at khatijar's place.
Sunday came and i went over to sheila's place and left for dinner with my family at seoul garden. The food there was bad and VERY little varities. BOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! Paid a price for something that wont fill my stomach! The duck resturant at raffles city was even better and cheaper compared to seoul garden.
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2:58 PM
There's a gifting that you know you have but you dont know how to handle it. You know things much clearer and you see things better. But afterall, you do not know how to handle it. You cant do much to either improve or prove it. It is difficult to express it here. Whatever it is, that's still a gifting and you dont deny it.
Back to life. I came out on friday. Went to Langer birthday chalet at pasir ris. Stayed there till quite late and i drink quite a bit. haha... Saturday there's The Zone Conference at expo. Went there for the whole day program. The workshop and the concert. Hillsong United was part of the workshop. Pastor Judah Smith was there as well to share and preach. He's a zanny person when he preach. Concert at night WAS TOTALLY HIGH and TOUCHING. It wasnt just concert, songs or anything else. It was a night where all voice became one and visions of His will opens up. The whole view was spectacular and the feel of that place was indescribable. AWESOME!!!!!! After the concert, we went airport to eat popeye and that's all for the day!! Oh by the way, i saw quite a few familiar faces during and after the concert. Didnt expect to see them so i was kind of shock. haha.
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4:36 PM