Let The Rain Come Down
And Wash Away My Tears.
Let It Fills My Soul
And Drown My Fears.
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Dunman Sec Sch
ITE College EAST
Birthday -> 25061989
Spiritual -> 17042004
Hope Church Singapore
Youth Deco Ministry
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Few days back when i was talking to a friend, he made in thinking till now even though he was the one that is troubled or rather frustrated. I wont say what happen exactly but what makes me thinking till now was about pleasing other, being acceptable by all, being imperfect. He had this ridiculous talk with a guy that he doesnt like and by means not to create an argument, he will keep quiet and listen.
The guy started to blame him continuously because of a small issue that is not his fault. After the talked, i walked pass my friend and end up talking to him. He told me he was avoiding argument and end up being so pissed about himself and shaken. He is a christian as well.
He said to love other is what we ought to do but why does it always end up being so bothered by everything that guy said? We are taught to love others, please others but we are not perfect therefore we cant always please others and do everything so smoothly. Does that make we vulnerable? And which of it make us vulnerable? Is that why people are so afraid of doing things or something else? People are all around and we know we care about what others think or say. How can we be better? After all, is that just moment of vulnerability or a moment of strength?
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1:49 AM
Thought i could blog about my life recently, my mind went blank and im staring at the screen dont know where to start and what to type. Okay, for the past weeks, i'd watched a few good movies with a group of awesome friends. Realized i missed service quite a number of times due to my duty in camp. Camp is seriously so screwed up!! I suppose when you work hard for something too much, you will end up losing the whole piece of it rather than owning some of it. There's a limit on everything. What should have been done, when to keep a distance or in fact, how to make it better? It is all about limit. "When everybody wants a piece of you, you run and you might get away and find a reason." "When there a problem or promises that we cant handle, we run like hell, hoping they'll be forgotten. But sooner or late, they always catch up. And maybe at the end of it, it isn't worth running away afterall.
listening - True by Ryan Cabrera
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7:33 PM
I am SO sO so TIRED!! Let's see how long can i actually last. Make it a challenge! =)
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2:41 AM
ARGHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh.... Hate this holiday. Is not suppose to be bored but somehow, i dont enjoy the holiday at all. Kind of feel screwed. No idea why. AND BLOGGER IS SO S SCREWED. GUI got problem for my laptop only i think. Cant change font colour, font type, etc......... SHIT!
My past few days had been so wasted! Seriously! Other than those days that are wasted, i went back to camp to do guard duty during my period of leave. Some people are just SO DAMN STUPID!!!!!! I went to funan to look for notebook, do some research. Hopefully to get one soon! Watched three movies during this period. Where got Ghost (BAD stuff), BandSlam (awesome plus we got the WHOLE theatre to OURSELVES.), The Proposal (NICE and Funny and Great!) Baybeat-ed yesterday after im done with my stuffs. Met jovin, and people for dinner first then headed to baybeat. Left at 11plus. Some bands were good.
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6:56 PM
Looking at my last entry, i believe time really flies. Important phrase for me in army is over and currently we're focusing on some shit work that we didnt complete as one last time and we are doing it soon. Though it is shit work, but when you actually count it, it gives you a PILE of shit work. Nonsense stuffs and everybody just hate it! Well, that's camp!
Saturday had combined service at suntec. Before going for service, i met some friends up in the morning at suntec as well. We ate our lunch at one duck restuarant at raffles city (i think). The meat of the duck was WOW!!!!!!!!! But kind of costly. Had 7 people at our table and we ordered one whole duck and 2 side dishes. One person $13+. After having duck as our lunch, we went to burger king for some fellowshipping. Talked, joked and mostly enjoyed ourselves. Some girls wanted to shop before heading back home so we accompanied them and after they left, i went to suntec to meet my group people. Service on the night was mainly on financial stuff. After service, th group went to have supper and i went over to tampines to meet bubu and jumat. Slept over at khatijar's place.
Sunday came and i went over to sheila's place and left for dinner with my family at seoul garden. The food there was bad and VERY little varities. BOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! Paid a price for something that wont fill my stomach! The duck resturant at raffles city was even better and cheaper compared to seoul garden.
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2:58 PM
There's a gifting that you know you have but you dont know how to handle it. You know things much clearer and you see things better. But afterall, you do not know how to handle it. You cant do much to either improve or prove it. It is difficult to express it here. Whatever it is, that's still a gifting and you dont deny it.
Back to life. I came out on friday. Went to Langer birthday chalet at pasir ris. Stayed there till quite late and i drink quite a bit. haha... Saturday there's The Zone Conference at expo. Went there for the whole day program. The workshop and the concert. Hillsong United was part of the workshop. Pastor Judah Smith was there as well to share and preach. He's a zanny person when he preach. Concert at night WAS TOTALLY HIGH and TOUCHING. It wasnt just concert, songs or anything else. It was a night where all voice became one and visions of His will opens up. The whole view was spectacular and the feel of that place was indescribable. AWESOME!!!!!! After the concert, we went airport to eat popeye and that's all for the day!! Oh by the way, i saw quite a few familiar faces during and after the concert. Didnt expect to see them so i was kind of shock. haha.
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4:36 PM
Week in camp had been so rush and meaningless lately. Dont even know what we are busy for and what we are doing. Well anyway, friday was ben's 21st birthday at pasir ris chalet. His birthday cake is cute. They got him the CJ 7 green colour fellow. *dont know what's the name* haha. Party was fun. Stayed till around 7plus then go back. Wanted to leave before the day break but too tired already so slept till morning. Reached home and slept till 2plus 3 like that. Pictures are at facebook. Bathed and went out after that. Suntec, dinner, Mad jack, lan shop to see see then bus-ed home. I'm still tired.
listening - Soon by Hillsong
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2:52 AM
My empty room
Crowded to soon
I look for the fire escape
I picture myself
Running like hell
Making my getaway
The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I'm running out of air
Break me out tonight
I wanna see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out
Whisper of our feet
Sneak down the street
Some kind of secret race
They'll carry on
Won't notice we're gone
So easily replaced
The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I'm running out of air
Break me out tonight
I wanna see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out
The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I got a feeling we're better off anyway
I don't care what they say
Break me out tonight
I wanna see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be
The only chance we get
We gotta take it
We don't do it now we'll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out
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11:56 AM
Have you been asking why lately? I've been asking why and until now i still dont know. So many things that i cant explain and i definitely cant control it as well.
Have you ever thought of why people that doesnt believe in God will blame God for bad things that happen to them? Because what they know about God is that God create all things including bad things. And why when people get things they want and have things done in their way, they forgot all about God? Because in their Brain, God is easy to blame. Giving credits to God makes them little. So rather than giving thanks God, they claim it as if they did it alone. So people can look up to them more. Who do you play the blame game with? when neither you nor your friends wants to admit a mistake? God. Is all about God. He's the easiest to put blame because you know he controls everything and creates everything. And YET you deny Him as someone who has your future. God doesnt create shit stuffs or bad things for you and us but HE will definitely MAKE all bad stuffs work together so that you WILL experience the goodness of Him and in the end, you will realize that it all work out in a better way.
And now, all i can do is to wait for His answer and show me how to walk this rocky road.
listening - Avalanche by David Cook
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12:56 AM
This week had been a very HECTIC, BUSY, MESSY, RUSHING, Lack of sleep week for me. Firstly, on monday we have to prepare for tuesday test in the field and rest time for us is not ENOUGH! Tuesday morning we went out to the field to do test and stuffs. Late afternoon then go back to camp. Then again, we have to prepare for wednesday field test part two. Which took up the WHOLE day when it is suppose to be a half day test. Got most of ourselves partially wet and that's the part where anger came right in. After getting wet, it is just the start of the test. When it finishes, the sky was already dark!!! When finally reach back to camp, it was around 8plus. So i had to rush to do all my stuff because i am booking out. By the time i was out, it's already 10plus. Imagine a half day program can drag till sooooooo LATE! Thursday was indeed a better day! Went to meet bubu at suntec to slack awhile and then to vivocity to meet my mom, sister and brother. Had marche for dinner. Wasn't that much variety and the oyster doesnt look fresh. Well anyway, it was still a great birthday dinner from my mom. =) Friday i met up with jumat together with bubu. Did nothing much, just walked around TampinesOne. Today, woke up rather late. Bubu asked me to accompany to sentosa since neal, alia, kak nor, shyanne and moshin are there. They were there for the cleo challenge thingy except for moshin. We went down for awhile and i left for church around 5plus. Had dinner with my brother's group and i left to khatijar's house. So basically, there's nothing much after the wednesday shit.
- feel kind of shitty and disappointed now. oh wells......
listening - Fall Away by The Fray
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11:58 PM